I know I said I wasn’t coming back for a week but I had to write tonight.
Facebook... my friend, my foe.
I caught a glimpse of a friend of a
few of my friends profile pic tonight and noticed that she was very
pregnant. We have met a few times and have a few very good friends in
common so it took me by surprise that I hadn’t heard that she was
expecting.
So what did I do? I went to her wall to take a look at her profile picture... all fabulous and cute with her baby belly.
Then I noticed all of the congratulatory messages on her wall, her baby has arrived...
What pulled at my heartstrings?
She had a baby girl.
What yanked at my heartstrings?
She now has the family I was supposed to have... 2 little boys and a baby girl.
What tore my heartstrings?
She named her Claire.
I can’t sleep.
I feel sick.
I am incredibly sad.
I am jealous beyond words.
It was extremely difficult to take in all at once. It felt like I was kicked in the gut, blindsided, totally caught off guard.
That’s what I get for being so Facebook curious.
And I think it goes without saying...
however I feel the need to... that of course I am ecstatic for her and
her family! I wish them nothing but the best and send them all a big
con“girl”ulations on the arrival of their little princess, Claire. xo