6 months ago today Claire was born.
I wish it was all just a bad April Fools Day joke.
I wish I could have woken up happy
this morning to see my baby girl. Instead I am tired because I couldn’t
get to sleep last night... all I could do was replay what happened 6
months ago, minute by minute, in my mind. I stayed up late so that I
could see 12:01am on the clock; the time my baby was born. I cried
myself to sleep and then woke up exhausted after tossing and turning and
dreaming all night.
I woke up feeling cheated.... again.
Half a year? Really? That is a really
long time yet it feels like yesterday and 10 years ago all at the same
time. I feel older. I feel more tired. I feel sad.
