Andrew doesn’t speak about Claire as much as I do so in the last week 2 admissions and an oops took me by surprise!
One evening he was setting the alarm
on his cell phone and was looking through his calendar and clicked on
October first and flashed the phone at me and it said Claire... for her
first birthday. Sweetness.
A couple of nights later he asked me
how I was feeling about being pregnant again and admitted to me that he
is afraid that I am going to develop postpartum depression as a result
of not being happy with the baby we get (not unhappy about the baby in
general just unhappy about the gender of the baby). I am happy he is
sharing his feelings with me and I explained that I too am worried about
my reaction one way or another but I honestly do not feel swayed as to
whether I want a boy or a girl. Either way it will be bittersweet (as I
mentioned in this post).
And then a day later we were looking
over Andrew’s holidays for next year as we had to make a few changes and
Andrew said, “Well, this week (Jan 24-31) I am taking off for Claire!”
And then, “Oops, I’m sorry. I meant Cinco.”
It makes me happy to know that she is
still on his mind. I know she is. How could she not be? We just don’t
talk about her often if I am not the one to bring her up. And in this
case, even an oops makes me love Andrew even more!!
