Lately my thoughts keep
spiraling between Claire and Lucy. I am so head over heals in love with
Lucy and cannot imagine my life without her and yet so sad and guilt
ridden thinking that she is here because Claire isn’t.
Claire was going to be our last child.
Had she lived, Lucy would not be here.
It is very difficult to just be happy in the now knowing that the now isn’t what it should have been...
And so, the vicious circle and spiral of guilty feelings about my 2 daughters continues...
