Monday, March 10, 2014

This is not the way...

Today, March 10th, marks Claire's due date. 
I should be planning a 4th birthday party. 
Instead I am consumed by what I am going to do in October 
to make it an extra special 5th birthday memorial celebration.

This year is weighing heavily on my heart.
This is not the way a parent should ever have to parent.

How has it been 4 years?
How will her 5th birthday be later this year?
How is it that the math is so backwards?


  1. Jaime it hurts me so much to see you hurting and I can't say or do anything that will take it away. Claire is in all our hearts everyday - more especially today. I'm not a big religious fanatic as you know, but in my heart I have to believe that she is with Gran and he's telling her stories and showing her poppy's suit and telling her all about her family here on earth. We love you so much and I wish we had the opportunity to have little Claire here with us. I hope that the love around you fills your heart and all your special "winks" helps ease the pain at least a little. Love you my little pumpkin. xxxxxxxoooooo mom

  2. Have you read the book "heaven is for Real" by Todd Burpo? there are sections in the book about the baby girl that they lost. I have always wondered about the little girl that I lost and i thought this book was interesting.

  3. I haven't read it Ellen. I am sorry you lost your little girl. My heart goes out to you.


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